I see you

“No one can teach you how to see”. – Neytiri (Avatar)

We live in a world where we look but don’t truly see.

I’ve spent much of my life loving people, going out of my way to love and embrace people who haven’t had a life filled with affection. I would use the love that I had in me to- as if by osmosis- teach people, nay, show people that love is indeed possible in this self-absorbed world.

In a world where we’re taught to look out for numero uno, I’ve chosen to put people before me, to love on people more than myself, and to spend my life not just looking at people, but “Seeing” people.

I loved Avatar. I loved how Jake Sully wasn’t taught how to see, but learned how to.

I have spent much of my life trying to see people, even when it cost me emotionally, physically, spiritually.

I believe with all my heart that people deserved to be seen.

I’m not perfect, not even near it, but one thing i’m good at is seeing people.

It’s cost me over the years. I’ve developed friendships, and tried to see people so much that it’s hurt, and even now, at the ripe old age of 27- i’m still learning how to handle being seen without being seen in return. A lesson that may take the rest of my life.

It’s hard at times. Sore. But one thing is for sure, if I spend my life trying to see people, my life is worth more having tried to see them first.

I am here now because God first saw me, chose to see me, has continued seeing me, even when I don’t deserve it. Perhaps that’s why I loved Avatar so much- It echoed a cry of my heart to not just have people look at me, but to see me, warts and all- and continue- til death do us part- to see me.

I hope you choose to be someone who not only looks, but sees.

It’s unlikely anyone will ever stumble upon my ramblings, but if you do, I hope that one day, perhaps today, you will not simply be looked upon, but seen, truly seen.

See you.

Shua